Quoc’s Web Journal

That’s what the speaker identified us as in the rooms… I love it!!!  That we are “little spiritual warriors” who have indeed gone through some major strife and challenges upon arriving in the rooms of recovery!

Here are some other cool things I have heard today:

- I’ve been searching for a place to fit in all this time only to realize and find out that it’s been here all the time… – Scrubs

- As alcoholics, our perception is that if a little is good; then A LOT must be really really good!!!  I loved how the speaker shared about drugs and alcohol being “medicine.”  Only, at some point, the medicine stopped working for us and started working against us.

- I know how to struggle; I don’t know how to shine…  I get to practice learning how to shine and love myself and see myself for all the qualities others see in me.

- Harness all that energy that I use to get loaded and get high towards loving myself, being of service, and forge a relationship with Higher Power.

- Imagine step 3 as candy in my pockets… In the left pocket it says: “blotting my intolerable situation to the end.”  In the right pocket, it says: “accept spiritual help.”  The candies are within my reach.  I get to choose!!!

Quick check in…

Think I will be able to sleep on my back tonight for the first time as my sunburn continues to very very slowly but surely heal…  I am both burning and itching at the same time!!!  Ack!!!  Woke up in an icky mood, but I sprung into action and went to a meeting; then spent the afternoon cooking myself a delicious filet mignon lunch meal that knocked me out for the afternoon; continued working on cleaning my home before heading into my 5:30P – 7:30P group…  We learned about doing things that are healthy for us that we weren’t able to do when we were loaded…  Hell, it felt so good for me to be able to claim sooo many things completed in the past couple weeks already!!!  Yippee!!!  There is more to be done… 

I will be springing into high gear buying furniture with my friend Jeff and having my apartment painted by my friend Rich and getting excited gearing up for the birthday party on August 23rd!!!  Yayee!!!  It will encompass my first birthday party that I am throwing for myself with my friends and family; celebration of accomplishing at least 30 days clean & sober; and christening a home for myself that is reflective of my personality and will create a space for me to finally get to entertain guests for movie nights in!!!  Yayee!!!

I had the opportunity to go to a big sober birthday bash for three friends and go rollerskating, but opted out going to my 2nd recovery meeting for the day and fellowshiping with a good friend at California Pizza Kitchen…  This is the 2nd week we’ve done that…  I am happy to announce that I am finally starting to build a core of gurlfriends!!!  Not only am I falling head over heals with my sober brothers, but they are finding deep appreciation and expressed how they have been able to actually realize a lot of different fun and cool non-traditional activities that they haven’t done with other friends…  Yayee!!! 

I couldn’t be more pleased that I have friends (without need to date or worry about romance) now that I can do all the cool things I have done in the past couple weeks.  Better yet, finding out that I have found much satisfaction and gratification from hanging out with my friends that match my expectations of wanting to date someone… I never needed to date someone to find this level of happiness after all…  And this is actually in line with those people I have in my life who are in long term very very healthy relationships… They started off as friends with no expectations of love…  YAYEE!!!

Here is to 17 days clean and sober!!!  If I keep at this, I will technically have 30 days clean & sober on my birhday August 19!!!  Now that would be one kick *ss birthday gift to myself!!!  To take a chip for 30 days clean and sober… Goodness knows the hundreds of people in my AA support group would be giving me a standing ovation for finally taking a chip for 30 days and really seeing that sober glow about me from soaking in the sunlight of the spirit!!!  I am well on my way because I am willing to do the work and turn it over completely to the care of God!!!

Cheers to a beautifully simple day,

Quoc