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So, you must be asking yourself, what ever on earth is Quoc talking about?  No, I am not out of my mind… I just have a few moments to type out some thoughts before I go to sleep… They are of the following just in the past day…

#1 – I received a phone call from AIDS Research Alliance… I had applied for a position there and went through 2 rounds of interviews.  The end result 3 weeks later after the interview appointment?  The Chief Administrator called me personally expressing her regrets that they did not hire me because I was “overqualified.”  As my friend reminded me, the bottom line is that they cannot afford me!  This is the greatest form of flattery!  I look forward to continue opening doors for myself for other opportunities as I know I am worth a lot more than I am getting paid… I continue to maintain extreme gratitude for the fact that I am employed especially in uncertain times like this…

#2 – I have been facebook dating this guy since March 29… So, it’s been 10 days!!!  LOL… I am gonna get to meet this cutie patootie tomorrow evening when I pick him up from the airport.  I will share more about him as time progresses.  For now, what I do know is that I am basing my decisions on sobriety first; then on serenity; and lastly focusing on where I can be of service to my fellow peeps in recovery, the man I get to date, my family, and where I can be of maximum service in my workplace!  I am so darn blessed to have so much in such a brief time coming back into the program!

#3 – If I haven’t repeated it already, a message has really resonated loudly with me… I heard it this past Saturday… It came from someone who had 34 years clean and sober…  She shared that alcoholism consists of 5% problem with the drink and 95% residing in my twisted thinking!!!  I get to do stepwork in resolving and recovering from this seemingly hopeless state!!!  I am very very clear that my stinking twisted warped thinking will get me in trouble!!!  I must be rid of selfishness, self-centeredness and act on self-sacrifice and selflessness in helping others!!!

#4 – I must remember sometimes that the most important person that I get to be of service to and to protect from suffering is the person in the mirror!  Earlier in the week, I helped a fellow newcomer friend who was homeless… The end result was me inviting someone who had drug paraphernalia into my home!  That is unacceptable!!!  Then I also spent some time talking to someone who was loaded and wasn’t quite ready to embrace the program.  I get to just listen and carry the message to them and most importantly, carry myself in a fashion that doesn’t place me in harms way and in jeopardy of relapse myself!!!  They got themselves in that sticky situation!  I already PAID my dues!!!  I no longer need to experience P.A.I.D. again… PAID for me stands for Pitiful And Incomprehensible Demoralization!!!  I paid once; I need not return again!!!

Hope I get to blog soon and have pictures posted for you… I have so many cool pictures to share!!!  Life is so incredibly full right now!

Huggers,

Quoc