Quoc’s Web Journal

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Hey folks… I have been grappling with what to do with this website as I am not sure it continues to serve the purpose I had in mind for it since it’s accidental inception when my friend Brad so generously bought this domain as a birthday gift for me about a decade ago!  I can’t believe that about 1/3 of my life has been shared with you folks!  That is a whole lot of good, bad and uglies in the multitude of blog entries I have made…

So, I continue to pray and see if this is still a good venue to share on as I become more and more satiated by Facebook in helping me stay in touch and keep up with my friends… Most of my friends are on facebook and even some that I hadn’t anticipated meeting…

With that being said, tonight I received a HUGE heaping of spiritual goodness with my kindred spirits…  Here are a few of the learning lessons I heard tonight that really resonated with me:

1) MY INFANTILE EGO TELLS YOU TO TREAT ME SPECIAL SO I MAY FEEL NORMAL!

2) MY SEX LIFE AS OF LATE HAS MORE OR LESS DRIED UP… I HAVE BEEN HAVING SEX WITH 1 PERSON FOR QUITE AWHILE NOW… I AM MORE THAN SATIATED BY BEING WITH THIS ONE PERSON… WHAT I DO WANT IT TO DO IT MORE OFTEN WITH HIM… SO, A QUOTE I HEARD LATELY REALLY MADE ME LAUGH… PERHAPS THE REASON WHY MY WELL HAS BEEN DRY IN THIS DEPARTMET LATELY IS BECAUSE IN MY PAST LIFE, I COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY USED UP MY SEX RATIONS… I’ve taken all the booty in the past years than rationed out for me and both my neighbors in the next lifetime!    So, perhaps this is a time for me to get introspective and figure out what’s up…

3) SOMEONE SHARED THAT THEY WERE WILLING TO JUMP IN FRONT OF A TRAIN TO SAVE ANOTHER PERSON, BUT NOT WILLING TO DO THE SAME FOR THEMSELVES…  I was able to relate to that sooo much as I do have tendencies of self-sabotage!!!  That as someone with a spiritual malady with symptoms that manifests itself by hurting myself with my wounds rather than nurturing and mending the wound…

These are but some of the powerful messages I have heard lately… I have had a world of living and experiencing and growing and contributing in my life… In this given moment, I identify with the self that is abundantly blessed on sooo many different levels… I have all my spiritual needs met and thankful to resist from acting on having all my physical wants met.  I have been able to incorporate the spiritual tools set at my feet in combatting life as someone who experiences a malady of a three fold nature:

1) Spiritual = NO GOD which leaves a gaping void in my gut that creates the

2) Mental Obsession to fill with drugs/alcohol/sex/food in excess and by acting on this mental obsession it creates a

3) Physical Allergy that manifests itself not by rashes or hives, but in irresistable craving to continue acting on that unhealthy behavior that will only lead me to jails, institutions and very realistically death…

I couldn’t be more grateful to be surrounded and immersed in a culture in a time when both my “willingness” to do the work matched with “clarity” as to why I am doing th work is bringing about such HUGE blessings and awesome spiritual awakenings that is leading me to discover and recover a person within myself that I never thought possible… One who is able to be self-supporting emotionally and not need as much outside validation as well as a spirit of continued altruistic actions…

I am so blessed!!!  I hope you are just around me to get to experience life as I am living it right now… Words no longer serve that purpose… It’s more in the action and living life that I find myself of maximum service to those around me…

What do you think I should do with this website?  Think it’s time to retire www.quoclam.com?

I welcome your feedback as I continue to contemplate and pray about this….

Always in service,

Quoc