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Just a blurb… This is my facebook update tonight at 11:10P:

“Quoc Lam’s heart aches in the most wonderful way… The ache is because I care for someone… This is what my spiritual malady worked so hard to destroy… I claim this as a victory for the work I’ve put into recover this and your unconditional love to experience it…  Today I am aching deeply and deeply grateful for it.”

My update earlier in the day was of me “learning the rules of engagement for dating, intimacy and just romance.. Ugh!!!  Seems as if everyone write their own book…  I am sooo confused…  Blargh!!!  I am glad to learn how to do this… I am 34 and barely learning to date in a healthy way…”

Again, I couldn’t be more grateful to have these intense feelings and have a host of friends I get to fall back on to help me… My friends have supported me unconditionally to walk with integrity and to reinforce the wonderful tools I have… My friend Joe reminded me just to be myself and claim my authentic self and share that with others… If others do not/cannot appreciate what I have to offer, then they clearly are not deserving of the love/care and support that I have to offer…  I just can’t help but feel sad that a year and half relationship I have unofficially had with this guy may just come to a crashing halt because I stirred the pot by expressing interest in taking it to the next level…

Sigh… Dating is sooo interesting and complicated!!!

Quoc